Teresa asked 2 years ago

I have been with my husband for 7years off and on.we were dating off and on for 15yrs before we got married.we have been back together for 2yrs now.he has always been very jealous over everything and everyone in my life even my pets.he is very controling..no make up..only can wear wedding ring had to stop wearing other jewelry. I can’t watch my favorite tv shows cause he thinks there stupid.I sit around and wait for permission to do anything.I have a 21yr old son who lives with my parents because they are in bad health.I’m very close to them.my husband gets mad at me and will take my keys so I can’t go see them.me and my son always make plans to hang out a few hours on Saturday or Sunday and if my husband gets mad then I can’t go hang with my son.about 6yrs ago we were living with my parents to save money for our own place.we fought there all the time and he told me a few times that he could kill me before anyone came in the room.I finally kicked him out my parents home and we seperated.I know now we should have stayed seperated but I’m such a dummy that I went back to him a year later.its always great in the beginning but usually after a few months the fights begin. Now he has never layed a hand on me even tho I’m sure he wants too.he has pointed his finger very close to my face but that’s all.we have been arguing for the last 3 months almost everyday. Its always the same thing..he says I do love him and care about him.sometimes he has a hard time sleeping and we go 3 days without sleeping then he head hurts a lot.if I don’t say “I’m sorry baby your head hurts.are you ok?” Then he starts saying you don’t care about me.you watch me lay here dying and you don’t care.always calling me a fat whore slut nasty bitch and much worse.he calls me retarded and stupid a lot.he gets bad cause I like going to see my parents and he called me retarded for that.he is not that closecto his family.he gets mad if I forget one thing in his lunch bag.its like I’m married to a 5 yr old.now he keeps telling I can not leave him again.that if I try to leave or do leave he will find me and kill me and anyone who gets in the way.but I’m hoping he is just talking to keep me scared so ill stay.cause he has told me plenty here lately that I can’t go anywhere all week and then by the middle of the week he gives me my keyes and tells me I can go to my parents and he always swears on his grandsons life that he won’t let me go to see them all week but he caves in and lets me go.he has threaten my life before but never did anything. Now he tells me he is old and he life is over.he is only 48 so not old.he tells me after he kills me he will kill himself cause his life is over.I tried to explain why would he hurt his grandson by doing that wouldn’t be around for him.my love for him is going away fast and I’m getting resentment toward him.he has always been this way that’s why we have broken up and seperated so much over the yrs.what do I do..do I leave and hope he doesn’t do anything and hope he is just talking like always.he always says he is gonna do everything to make sure he goes to heaven then in the next breath he says he is ready to leave this earth and take us both to hell…